it's goal update time again! i am officially 29 and a half tomorrow. and i have a few bones to pick with 29, but i have faith that it will smarten up for its final half.
1 - conquer my anxiety, or at least win a few battles against it. i am not feeling anxious lately, which is a good thing. more of a general frustration and without a lot of direction of what the eff i am doing. some days, i feel confident, sure that i am on the right path, and something is just around the corner. but then other days, i am lethargic and melancholy and resemble pig pen surrounded by a cloud of gloom.
2 - be more thoughtful of others, especially around special occasions. i am doing ok. not fantastically well, but ok. and if facebook messages count, then i am on top of my game! but sadly, that wasn't really the intention of this goal so i am not totally on the ball. september is a big birthday month in my family though and i am already a little bit ahead of that game, so there's that.
3 - continue making visiting family and friends a priority. south africa is certainly in the works and i have sent messages to friends in cape town to see if i can visit with them. and lucky for me, i have two friends coming to me in august and both are friends i knew in nairobi, one who now lives in east timor and the other in darfur, so it will be grand to catch up with them.
i will also get a visit in with my dad while i am in victoria this weekend (and a ride to the trailhead, yippee!) and am planning on spending more time at my family's cabin in the month of august and even though this is not technically what i had in mind with this goal, i am looking forward to it.
4 - nail down some sort of short-term career goals. um, yeah. i feel as though this year so far has been the year of opportunities that were not to be, but were so damn close! there are a few more irons in the fire that could materialise into something, but no word yet on my dream job...
5 - lay a nest egg to accompany my nest. apparently 4 day hiking trips can be expensive. but other than that, i am saving my pennies and will do until i have to fork out the dollars for my plane ticket to cape town. until then though, my nest egg is coming along. my new laptop took a chunk out of it, but full time hours, an increase in my billing rates, and freelance writing work are adding up.
6 - eat more balanced, regular meals. i didn't even eat dinner last night. in fact, i ate lunch and that was it. today i didn't eat until 1 and will hopefully remember to eat dinner too. honestly, living alone in the summer means that i a) eat out a lot or b) don't eat unless i am starving and then just open the fridge and make a meal out of whatever combination of food hasn't gone bad. the other night it was spinach pasta with gorgonzola cheese and asparagus on the side. that is one of the better combos i have come up with, normally they include pretzels and dill pickles. eesh.
7 - sleep an appropriate amount. i am sleeping well, even with some of the hot evenings we have had, and have made a point a few nights this month to get to bed early enough to read some of my book before sleeping. this might sound like something a Normal Person who do Regularly, but i don't and typically end up watching crappy tv (go chris go!) until i am exhausted and haul my behind to my bed.
oh, this is sort of funny and involves sleeping... i wanted to try out my new sleeping bag and was lying in it watching more bad tv and i fell asleep only to wake up in a pool of sweat because, hey, guess what?! my sleeping bag is good up to 10 degrees and it was hot as balls in there when i woke up. good to know that it will keep me warm this weekend!
8 - maintain my priorities. i think i am doing well and especially after a spring where i felt pulled in all directions simultaneously, i am approaching a state of balance where i feel i am on top of most things, including my contract positions and my health and fitness (well, apart from the sore hoof). this applies to all parts of my life except the state of my nest... and because of the disaster i now find myself living in and because i seem to be able to work my buns off and save my pennies, i figure a good use of those pennies would be to hire someone to keep my nest in a presentable state. hence, i am going to hire a housekeeper. da da dun!
i feel slightly like a glutton for this decision, but it makes sense and it will allow me to continue to find balance by being outside to enjoy the summer weather and socialising with my networks while also getting paid work done while i am at home rather than feeling guilty about watching my bad tv when i should be dusting shelves, cleaning fridges, and sweeping floors.
9 - keep asking for what i want. i am keeping up with this one. i haven't asked for anything monumental lately, but i have been giving some deep thought to what it is i do want and putting that out to the universe. i suspect that when i see something i want, i will have all the confidence to ask for it like i deserve it and that is good enough for the midpoint of 29 as far as i am concerned.