i just realised that i hadn't updated my goals for october, so here they are!
1 - conquer my anxiety, or at least win a few battles against it. i had a little anxiety around social engagements last week, especially to go to events where i was the focus of the attention, but i feel on top of things this week and rather optimistic about the future, which is great. and wards off the anxiety. but i do miss those wild dreams on anti-anxiety meds!
2 - be more thoughtful of others, especially around special occasions. texts, cards, calls. just need to work on the gifts, especially as it is coming up to christmas season and i want to make sure that i am not scrambling to pick stuff up for the people on my list. i am hoping to think of some good ideas.
3 - continue making visiting family and friends a priority. i don't have any plans for trips to see anyone after my whirlwind trip of visiting in south africa. but i do have a lot of fun events coming up with friends and family. birthday dinners, birthday drinks, ladies christmas pot-luck, baking day, wine tasting with the girls, bridal showers and stagettes, family christmas traditions to look forward to, and the icing on the cake will be a close friend's wedding in banff. i think it will be a pretty fantastic holiday season and i am going to get things started early (which i figure is completely acceptable because starbucks has released the red cups, marking the official beginning of the holiday season! well, sort of).
4 - nail down some sort of short-term career goals. this is connected to #1. i feel good about what is to come. it has been wonderful to get credit for a job well done in my current positions and for my managers and high ups to congratulate me on my accomplishments. my company advertised in the same magazine that i was featured in and in the ad they said that i was compassionate, committed, and deserving of the accolade. my past 9 months have been taken over with thoughts of 'what next?' and 'where to?' and not feeling as though i am doing what i should be. i am still not sure what the answers to those questions are, but i am content with where i am professionally and that is the best i have felt about #4 all year.
5 - lay a nest egg to accompany my nest. i'm laying off the international travel for awhile. that should help in the savings department. and so will looking forward to the next tax season, eesh. working so much is keeping my expenses down as i rarely have time to go out and buy frivolous things. oh, except for my betsey dress. but that was a deal! and for an event!
6 - eat more balanced, regular meals. this one gets a big, old fail. i have only been for groceries since returning from south africa a few weeks ago (and once for a single celery stalk that cost $0.31) and have little to make a meal out of in my house. so instead, i grab something on my way home from work. this week i have had a vietnamese sub, souvlaki, won ton soup, left over pizza, and a frozen pizza i scrounged out of my freezer. and this evening my snack was a can of mushrooms, which i know disgust some people, but they are one of my secret guilty food pleasures!
7 - sleep an appropriate amount. this waxes and wanes. some mornings i wake up feeling peppy and ready for the day and others, i feel like i could just scrunch down further under my duvet and turn my alarm off. i spent most of sunday catching up on sleep/feeling rather hung over, but the larger problem is working 12 hours in a day and not having enough time at the end of it to unwind. i have found that a few glasses of wine help!
8 - maintain my priorities. although i am not exactly sure what my priorities are, i feel as though they are in check. or at the least, they are not out of balance at the moment. leaving calgary and canada behind always helps me to do this and being in south africa certainly did. maybe the first step to really achieving this is to establish my priorities...
9 - keep asking for what i want. well, soon i will be asking for the removal of support of an organisation that i don't agree with at work and that sort of counts. i have been given a number wonderful things lately and i feel like right now, i don't need to ask for a thing. instead, i feel like i have a lot to give.