a few days early, but i wanted to reflect on the work to my goals for 2010 before i jet off again this weekend.
1 - conquer my anxiety, or at least win a few battles against it. april has been a good month. a really busy month, but as far as anxiety is concerned, a good month. it probably helped that any anxiety felt was because i was utterly swamped with life and work and that type of stress can be overwhelming, but i have always had an easier time dealing with this type than anxiety coming from uncertainty, emotional turmoil, or the feelings i get when i feel stagnant.
2 - be more thoughtful of others, especially around special events, days, occassions. i haven't done anything particularly effective in april towards this, but have plans to prepare thank you cards and give a good friend who just ran the boston marathon a card to congratulate her on that incredible accomplishment. this goal is most important and timely as i had 10 committed and hardworking volunteers who made the screening of call + response yesterday a success!
3 - continue making visiting family and friends a priority. i am booked to visit my papa on vancouver island in june and in an unexpected twist of events, i will be meeting up with and appreciating the hospitality of a friend in vietnam. i had seriously considered a trip to chicago, but unfortunately, that will have to be put off for the time being as i don't know that i will still have a job if i don't show up for more than 2 consecutive weeks at a time!
4 - nail down some sort of short-term career goals. nothing nailed down, but this course that i am going on in thailand will certainly open doors and help me solidify if i want to work in emergency situations again (i think i do) and i am really looking forward to meeting the other participants and the facilitators and learning from them and making more connections.
my day job is also gearing up lately and although it is not necessarily exactly what i would like to be doing in years to come, i continue to get more work and opportunities so i am happy to stick it out and have it pay the bills for a little while longer.
5 - lay a nest egg to accompany my nest. failing. utterly failing. but should be meeting with my accountant to sort out my taxes before i leave the country again. but apparently, international travel is not cheap! but i promise to get on that nest egg as soon as i get back home. really, i mean it this time. this means no more shopping for dresses or eating out at delicious spots or pretty things for my nest. for awhile.
6 - eat more balanced, regular meals. i am getting better at this, especially because i have been cooking more often and then eating my leftovers (even for lunch a few times to save my pennies!) so i always have decent food at hand. i also have been more careful of what i eat the evening before big runs and immediately before a run. this past weekend i ran 20km and was absolutely starving by 16km though so i still have some more to learn about how to fuel my body properly.
and it pays to mention here that i loved the food in mexico, as i had expected after being away from the country for a few years. guacamole, pico de gallo, chilaquiles, machaca, oaxacan cheese!
7 - sleep an appropriate amount. it was great to sleep in mexico (although in a rather uncomfortable bed) and not have to get up to head to work or out for an early morning run. since i returned, however, i have been sleeping enough (well, barely), but not very restfully. i have been having dreams about what i have to do the next day and am having some anxiety in my sleep! not quite like dreaming in bollywood, is it?
8 - maintain my priorities. wow, this month gave me a run for my money in the priority department. sadly, i let my running go this past week as i gathered up all the stuff for the event yesterday and picked up deliveries from the bus station, and organised volunteers. in this same week, i had my car serviced, lost and found my wallet, attended the volunteer calgary awards (even though we did not win), baked my boss cookies for his birthday, went out for a lovely dinner at san remo (yum!), did an interview with the cbc, went for another dinner at una (yum!) and 3 bottles of wine with my girlfriends, and managed to tidy my nest and do a lot of laundry. it was a struggle, but i think i managed my time well and was careful not to make too many additional commitments over and above what i was capable of (apart from the cookies, that was excessive, but i need favours as i am taking time off again!)
i am hoping that i can have some more much needed downtime (i know, i know, i just got back from a week in mexico with my family...) in vietnam. oh, did i mention i am going to vietnam? well, i am! a little add-on vacation after my time in thailand, which i am very excited and a little nervous about.
9 - keep asking for what i want. i am going to thailand! to stay in a 5 star hotel! i was supposed to go to bangkok for the training that i mentioned last month, but they changed it to pattaya after the grenade attacks in bangkok last week. i was a little disappointed as i really like bangkok and was looking forward to doing some shopping in my favourite districts, but i will just have to explore a new city instead. one that just happens to be on the beach!
all of this came from applying to be included in this training, so i think that asking for what i want is paying off! i also had to ask for time off (although as i am a contractor, no one can really say no) and that wasn't much fun, but had to be done. next up, ask my volunteers to plan another kick ass event!